Psychological Counselling

I am emotionally dependent on others. I don't feel happy with myself. I am overthinking mostly and don't do things which are important to me. I feel no motivation to do anything because of all the past failures I had in life. What should I do?

Sometimes i fees no one here, like I'm alone and start crying, i talk someone after that I feel good

I want to learn fairy tales for Imagination. But my adult mind is not supporting this idea... In what way can I make learning fairy tales a habit?

My mother is suffering from forgetfulness and mental health issues. She can only speak bengali. I need a Bengali speaking doctor . Also wanted to know if home visit is possible.

I had opted for a session in person with a psychiatrist, I told them about my issues about panic regarding  fear of death, some issues were of social anxiety, she prescribed me a Escnx-5mg, some of the anxiety is calmed, she also told she would be counselling me but whenever I tell her my issues she says medicine will work and changing the routine will work, after 10 days, i again went at her clinic and told that even After taking meds for a week, I'm unable to get rid of panic i want to improve personality, I tell her that something always bother me but there isn't any specific reason, she just says that I need to change routine and continue meds, she is sweet and  listens but I'm looking for someone who understands deeper and root issues, why I have it, I know death is inevitable and nothing can be done which is the same thing she told me but I was unable to understand this is why I considered professional help. I'm looking for personality development help,skills ..need advice.

I have a phobia of eating and sleeping .both things I am unable to do there is constant thought of something happening to me.

I don't feel like eating anything .my weight is reducing . thoughts keep coming to me.i want help how should I start eating

I am unable to sleep.because thoughts keep coming to me someone will kidnap in my sleep and I will not be able to come home

I have anxiety though I keep coming without any stop no matter I don't want to think but still it keeps coming

I have attached my fear of cancer in the image. Please guide me doctors, what should I do. I want to cry so badly.