Psychological Counselling

I have been going through depression from more then 3 yrs now and tried to contact a doctor who gave me meds and I am scared to take meds as m going through other medical issues as well. It's been 6 months now that I visited doctor and never had meds and never got strength to meet doc again. I want to talk to someone and explain what I feel as my bad and negative thoughts overcome me day by day. I try to control my thoughts all the time as I m only person to care my mother. But controlling myself with patience now is getting over inside me and all the time I feel suicidal. I am going through this from 3 yrs and it's a story of 10 yrs that stood me at this place that I want to talk to someone and can't find a doc to take long session to understand me I do not want to take medicine unless someone listen to me with patience. It's just pushing me to bad day by day.. any doc who can take a entire session to listen and help me?

It's been 5 years of our marriage. We have a son (1.5years old). Still, my husband is unable to understand my only one thing that I want my own personal space with him. He keeps talking to his family till 12 o clock and 1 o clock at night. He keeps me waiting to have food together and spends that time over phone..even his family doesn't understand this basic thing. Pls help. What should I do? I have been handling this since 5 years.

An idea arises in my mind which is not even happened to me and which is very annoying and make myself out of control especially when I sit alone. For example: Washroom. If I iam not busy then it happens to me. And many things which have happened in my childhood. It also annoys me too much. 

My father started drinking during the day regularly and while asking about the issue, he started crying and saying that u guys keep on blaming me evrytime and I don't do anything. We are not able to understand if he is currently having any stress/tension due to which this is happening and if so, how can we get rid of this ?

I stammer and clutter. I don't know whom to consult first. Psychiatrist, psychological counselling or speech language pathologist. Could someone tell me?

I am getting panic attacks and getting restless.my whole body is shivering.it feels like, i am loosing control over my body. The reason i think it is happing are, i am uncertain about career, my freinds and relatives... They all are settled in their lives.it builds insecurity in me.my financial condition is not good too...i had a chat with a doctor on practo. She suggested me to take  1.excitalopram 5mg 2.clonafit 0.5mg

Lately, I have been feeling that I add no value to my boyfriend's life (he is workaholic I clearly understand and I never want to seek his attention), i feel his life would have been much easier without me he could date as many girls he want to, he doesn't have to deal with my insecurities and waste his time everytime I am being very emotional .I think he is just staying with me because he think I am innocent,  kind and truthful, emotionally broken person, he is affectionate but I don't think he loves me like I do, or I think I put my heart and soul to be with him, share everything, he is very important part of my life. He doesn't share most of his thoughts to me. I feel I only know him and not his family whereas he knows evrything about my family, friends and evryone. Not once so many times I feel the pain of our break up. But If I am the one who is pulling him back in his lifen maybe I should let him go no matter how much I love him.

My friend is having a problem everyday when he sleeps at night he suddenly wake up and he listens screamy voice near him . Suggest something for him It happens from 8-9 days..

I have a best friend since from the last 10 year, i always tried to make her happy, be there for her in everytime. I have given more importance to her from discussing and deciding about her carreer Nd future we set everything. I always helped in every matter from small matter to even big matter too. She trusts me and i trust her too.We are a very close friends since childhood .But the thing is that due to over importance she calls me up evertime while i am on office, and i tried to do it. But thing going very wrong and she is very much dependent on me each and every thing should be done by me. She used me like a PA , mujhe yeh karkr, dona and all. She calls up evertime when only she needs me otherwise no calls. But now i had maintained a distance from her and when she asks for a help i used to point some office work so i cannot do that and i feeled her that i am busy in office. But from inside i started hating her because of her behaviour. Is this a wrong decision i took?

English words always displaying in eyes while object, speaking with person if they English words spelling of that words displaying in eyes pls help me sir how to overcome from this problem its happening from 4years