Psychological Counselling

Ok so i turned 27 in Feb.My not so boyfriend is dating someone else since mid October!! He was still friends with me until 16th feb(my bday) he broke up with me at least a dozen times in the last 2.5 years. I kind of get, this is too big to be free question. But I can't think of anything else. My mom thinks getting help is trying to be cool.Counseling I mean, too modern n not something I need. Maybe I don't. Idk. Oh and I have had an abortion. Yeah. Same guy. March 2020,just before lockdown. My mom or family obviously does not know about it. Nor I am ever going to tell them. Ever. I will never be okay with what I have done. the pain was excruciating. Beyond imagination. I love him.. So i wanted to keep the baby, he didn't let me. N i guess I couldn't keep it coz India n marriages. N my mom is behind my life to get me married. I don't want to. I can't marry just anyone. I can't move on, so I shouldn't marry anyone. I don't want to eat a bunch of medicines n get super fat n too much acne

I have a tendency of comaparing my life with others which i cant stop (ik that is harming) , i even try to adapt different people personalities , i m not happy with anyone around me , this has made me really short tempered and anxious on silly things ,I feel I need good people around me all the time but i cant talk to people ,i get confused , i want to grow myself but i always thing people around me are hinderance i dont know if thats really a case or i m just blaming for my incapabilities , I have been diagnosed with pcod a year ago but I have these issues since 2 to 3 years , due to all these reasons i have frequent outbursts , i hit myself when other people are not understanding me and everyone around me is unhappy , and i guess i need help or this is just a mind block

I am addicted to Body Massage Centre. I can't resist myself from going to such places. Paying regular visit has deteriorated my confidence and motivation for a good relationship. How do I stop this addiction?

I have been observing panic attacks from last 2 years and recently it became worse. Whenever I receive an attack I always have a second thought of not being good enough and safe for people around me

I've taken counselling earlier for some personal issues a year ago. Currently Im struggling with my emotions and Im unable to focus on anything. Im continuously scared and I start crying like I fear death and its going to affect me in some way. Because of the stress Im unable to concentrate on work and I've not been able to unpack the way I feel to anyone. This started in 2019 December when I my brother met with an accident and nearly struggled to survive. Since then I've been scared to do anything like I cannot let my parents out of my sight as I think Im the only one that can protect them. My work involves a lot of travel and while im not at home all my mind could think about are the negative things that can happen to them. I feel scared to even get out of my house and my boy friend left me on Feb' 20 and everything together makes me scared. I cant go anywhere I sit at home and work and Im still worried on how I could protect my family and make sure that they wont leave me. Need Help

I really want to overcome with my fears and want to focus on my study but I'm failling in every thing please helpe me with this

I m a student currently having papers 12th exams, i cant sleep at night all night and just because of some sounds around me i wake up ...i get irritated very often and very much ...i have low self-esteem low confidence ...and migraine too . When i cant control my anger due to frustration i cry alot and i have started feeling anxiety and depression (i guess) what should i do?

I face panic attacks sometimes. And gets dizziness and anger issues. Sometimes I feel breathlessness when I start to have a panic attack.

I was taking nexito plus 5mg since last 6 months . i stopped it before 20 days by tempering the doses but i keep getting dizziness and vomit sensation on n off . is it coz of nexito plus or this is something else .

I was in a relationship in with this guy for about 4 to 5 years. Although we had planned our future together but as problems started piling up, we broke up in 2019. Off late he has been trying to contact me saying all kinds of things like he is very lonely he misses me and all that. But when I start talking to him nicely, there is this sudden change in his behaviour towards me and he starts treating me badly saying all sorts of hurtful things. Sometimes he want to sort things out the other time he becomes disrespectful for no valid reason. I wish to know the reason behind this sudden change in his behaviour and why some people behave like that. Are these people seriously messed up? Or do they just want a reaction from you for attention seeking purpose or anything like that. He has become not only negative but toxic too.