Mental Health

I HV been going through deep depression from last 2 weeks. I can't stop myself thinking.i have changed my environment i went on vacation to rishikesh stayed in ashram with family to gain peace but nothing worked.still thinking....I found myself a looser...I again n again thought of dieing ..Nothing left in my life...In the beginning i get into a relationship with a guy i didn't know much about him he is aggressive,short,tempered,impulsive.He used to tell everything in the beginning but now he stop sharing things with me ..He is hiding his phone n in return blame me that i always doubts him..i got addicted to him i thought and even tried 4-5 times of leaving him but i got fail. He starts shouting on me and even he stop making calls. I used to call him all day. I think he get irritated with me. I have my exam after 3 months which decides my career but when i study i start thinking about him. What should i do please let me know

I have constant head ache, numbness in head and tingling in head, weakness, over sleeping, dreading to go to work, breathlessness, vibration in body, fainty feelings

I always feel low in a social gathering and try to avoid them. I have began to hate looking at myself  in the mirror and feel very low. I feel very comfortable when I'm alone and don't feel like talking to anyone. I can't maintain eye contact and end up stammering, sweating and confused when speaking to someone. It's been a long time(more than 3 years) I've been experiencing this. I feel like I'm being watched, criticised and judged always (even when I'm alone!). But strangely though I do feel very elated at times and presume I can do anything but then the fear again creeps up from nowhere and it repeates! Is there any way of ending this up?

My father in law age 75+ is frequently quarreling, agitated to small or no issue, sometimes beats his spouse. we can not take him to doctor as he will make a scene. Pl suggest some medicine.

I'm feeling down, irregular sleep, couldn't figure out what's going around me, fear, easily getting irritated irrespective of the situation, I feel like everyone around me are there to dump me. Mood swings, always being moody, anger

I have been low on self esteem for few months now. I have become socially inept. I have screwed my life to a large extent

I took Zoloft 25mg for 1 week, 50mg for 3 weeks and 100mg for 1 day and now 25mg for 3 days and the diarrhea is killing me, would it be ok to just stop it now???

Unable ṭi sleep at night...constant thoughts wander in my mind... mind cant relax...all negative thoughts ate coming in mind

Do depressions are for lifetime? I have been on medication from June 18 2006. Instead on reducing medicine, I got added to 3 medicines. Please help.

I got out of a serious relationship about 7months ago. My ex is moving out of country soon. We're still in touch. Since then, my sleep cycle has been very disturbed - 4hrs of broken sleep after midnight (I used to sleep for full 8hrs before 10-6). I get severe headaches sometimes. I can't concentrate at work at all, i have gained a lot of weight (close to 15kgs) and entered the obese category. I feel helpless, purposeless and sad all the time on the inside. I cry a lot ( not in front of anyone ). Sometimes i even have suicidal thoughts. I was always a happy go lucky type person before this. I tried joining the gym and doing meditation but i don't feel motivated towards anything.