Mental Health

Hello..I have delusion that my past (before some hour;days or week)behavior and thought was out of my control/it was wrong.   I am facing this problem since last 2 months..What may be reason?.I diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder ..I have 1 major dipresion episode of 4 month..and currently taking sertraline..No any depressive symptoms.

I think i have a problem with being so impatient and paranoid I don't think if I have to consider it as a big deal,but everytime my boyfriend will not reply as fast as I expect, or not message me at all, i will go crazy or Be paranoid . Well i know its very common to mostly people who are in a relationship, but everytime he does that i really get irritated, it's like i always overthink or something, well i just wanna know if that trait of mine is alarming, and needs actual medication or not

I am constantly get vulgar thoughts relating to my parents relatives others from old to kids from last 20 days.i am having this thoughts after having a fear of thoughts monitored by someone don't know how may be some kind of black magic but it is true not my imagination

I have loss my appetite and feel nauseous all the time. I have absolutely no interest in things I use to enjoy the most. I get emotional very easily and just want to sleep all day. My head feels heavy and I have a strange numbness in my body.

I've been in depression and existential crisis from past 1 year...I think nothing is worth doing, and this makes me depressed...I cry sometimes when it becomes too overwhelming...I've also had a recent breakup of a 2 yr. relationship which has made things worst fr me...Please advice me what should I do. How can I be normal again?

I have been experiencing extreme sadness. I feel so numb and empty. I feel like everything was so wrong and I always torture myself for every stupid things I do. I don't know who I am and what I want anymore. Now, in the past few weeks, I found myself cutting my own self with a blade or knife. It brings so much pleasure to me with every cuts and blood that comes out from my own. It became an addiction, every single night, I always cut myself and I can't no longer control it.

I've been crying for no apparent reason whenever I am alone. I feel really dizzy these past few days I have dim vision and I am having a hard time breathing.

I've been experiencing recurrent anxiety and worries every morning. I felt like blood is rushing to my head and my hands are cold and I keep on sweating. I had short-term panic attacks. I take Benadryl to alleviate my anxiety but it doesn't really help as I still experienced it almost everyday especially when I woke up, during branch time and even at night. I'm trying to do some activities to divert my attention but it just won't stop. I have also been exposed to an exhausting activity recently.

I am having trouble to think clearly for quite sometime now. Whenever I am free I start to think about past events. Often this leads to a sense of anxiety and leaves a hollow feeling in my chest. These used to happen before too but these days they have become more frequent. Some days I don't have a sound sleep and on days I wake up to a dream of a situation which is clearly made up in my mind. It was manageable thus far but it now affecting my work and my interactions with people.

I have been overthinking about everything lately. I cry on very stupid issues and cry a lot. I feel unworthy, useless and a burden. I feel like a failure. I hate waking up in the morning and sleep for hours. I am fine when I am surrounded by people but cannot stay alone.