I have everything parents,job,love etc etc but i am scared to laugh,i cry while laughing,i don't enjoy my life,everything is monotonous,i want to be pampered,i am in relationship for last 3 yrs but not happy, i feel alone i share everything with him but still most of the times i am alone. My mother is not well, i work at home also and no one thinks what i am going through,i have always lived for others ,i think a lot,i go out of my comfort zone for my loved ones but never received the same. My boyfriend tells me to share things with him but his life is very happening so he does not understand my situation i don't have any life outside working alone in ofc,cooking taking care of other people. I just don't want to live or i just want to go somewhere alone and take a deep breath and live alone there
I suffered from OCD past year ago, which has been switched to Bipolar Disorder. I'm experiencing elevations in my mood. Unable to concentrate on studies. Motivation levels are fluctuating, No regulation in righteous thought flow. Agression has reached the top stage by creating problems in my routine life. Lusty thoughts are coping my mind. Suffering with restlessness in hands and legs. Mania is perciving at irregular intervals . I'm unable to find solution for my maniac Disorder. Sometimes I often feel like inattentive to various situations.
I am married for 4 months as of now , for the first 2 months we were too happy and enjoyed our life.
Now my husband feels that whatever I try to share or speak to him is not that worth and he says he gets headache .
He always shouts on me in high tone and ignores me. He wants me to be silent all the time .I am so disturbed by his actions that I feel somewhere this silence is killing me becoz of this I have started talking to myself silently . I feel that I am left alone in this world.
I am going psyched.
I am an IT professional. Sometimes when I need to take care of multiple things, and is in stress specially when family member e.g. parents, in-laws are coming to my home, along with office work family responsibility also increases. In those kind of environment if wife mostly engaged with in-laws or talks or sometimes she is not taking care of my parents as much care with as her parents, then looking those I feel tensed, though I wanted to ignore those things. and after 2-3 days all of sudden my anger goes to peak and I started responding in anger mood and behave abnormally. Sometimes it goes and sudden socking behavior.
Also this happens when sometimes I tensed in office work, other home work and then family argument cause me to behave abnormally.
Could you please help me on this to know, how can I behave as normal person and can ignore these small small things and freely work and enjoy life.
I hav been trying to consult doctor fr stress management..i have paid fees twice but i have not got any solution.can anybody help me with this please??