I am having chronic back pain for 1 year. I am going through so tough stage of my life. I am not feeling happy regardless of what I am doing. I am feeling very fatigue, irritated, anger. Sometimes when i go out which mostly i dont do nowadays, i am feeling like people are noticing me or murmering about me which even though not making me scary but effecting my confidence so badly. I am having so much thoughts about suicidal ideas and whenever i am day dreaming,
It will be about suiciding. But which I am sure for now that I will never do. Couple of months ago, in my old apartment i was feeling a so bad pungent smell which was not felt by anyone whom i reffered to. It remained even after cleaning the entire apartment so clean. I still can't believe that it was mot real. It took me to a situation where I am unable to realize a smell is real or fake while i am feeling one. I am hearing my own thoughts so louder inside my head whkch is irritating me a lot.
My hand shivers a lot..even in summer if I am holding a fork to eat something it starts shivering and it is getting very embarrassing
I have a family history in psych any weird behavior since childhood. Due and prolong to which I been suffering from anxiety, depression and insomnia. I use to have sleep pills when I was 9 years, now it's quite an ineffective assistance to my physical and social problems. My family consist of doctors which are more of other specialist, skin and dentist precisely. Even I was addiction to smoking and tobacco products, I need detoxification measures and and substitute for addiction caused.
Having agressive anger and headache since 15 days
Emotional outburst with the crying continues 2days.
My mother has been having problems with her behavior since last 4-5yrs. She has been going through menopause. My parents always had a little stressful relationship but lately she is impossible to talk and thinks that she is a victim of everything, that all of us are against her. She is very very critical and cuz her body doesnt support her due to arthritis and age catching up she stays frustated a lot.