I've been dealing with toxic environment around me since I was like — 5. Be it school, coaching or even at times home. Not that my parents don't love me, but the opinion clashes and all. I can feel it in me that have a lot of potential but Idk how to make the most out of it. I feel scared, of everything. I feel hopeless and even suicidal at times but the pain that could come up scares me again. I keep finding ways to distract myself from the things that matter like reels or anything but I won't enjoy that too completely. Idk what to do.
Why do doctors not prescribe PHARMACOGENOMICS (psychiatric drugs) tests for their patients?
I have consulted a couple of psychiatrists ON&OFF. I questioned a few but they did not seem convinced about this test.
I have suffered terribly by the side-effects of psychotropic drugs. I am quite skeptical & scared now to go for the TRAIL & ERROR of the medication treatment. For most people it works & for a few like me they have to suffer badly & it seems hard to find that one drug which will work.
In depression (primary) or secondary ( due to any physical reasons), inflammation, migraines etc, is there any loss of brain cells or no? The physical changes caused by depression or the neurotransmitters imbalances, are reversible or no? Is there any damage or loss of brain cells as I can see some websites claiming that depression due to inflammation kills brain cells. How quickly can one recover from this or no? Please guide correctly. Also, in physical and mental stress and loss of sleep, breathing becomes shallow. Does this mean less oxygen is reaching the brain? Please guide. Does it permanently lower cognitive abilities or no?
Also, do psychiatric medicines and rtms cause any harm?
I think a lot on anything. Literally on anything. There are lots of bad thoughts in my mind. Before doing anything I think it will be wrong and I always think about the worst case which can happen. I do panic and tention on very small things and those things which can never happen. Even I know the worst case will never happen, I can not stop myself from thinking about that. I am in great trouble, please help me by giving me suggestions what to do. I have ruined my work life balance and study for this, even I have ruined relationships with my family and friends for this bad habit.
I always feel something is wrong with me, I feel like o will die anytime, I could get a heart attack, I feel pain in my chest, heaviness, pain in my left side of body, I did ECG and I keep checking my BP as well.. everything is normal in that.. I have acidity issues, I feel pain in different parts of body.. cannot sleep properly, have a lot of overthinking , feeling scared with everything around me.. what to do.. All this is happening since 11 months now.. this started post my delivery.. please help
