I work in a bank,I feel an inefficient all the time. If am facing a task,I try to find ways to escape it.Sometimes while going to office I remember the tasks and get a thought what if I met with an accident rather than going to office.That would give a genuine reason not to face it.I cry a lot, even sometimes I don't know why am I crying.In between a beautiful conversation I bring a topic with my spouse,where if he doesn't give me the response I need then I fight with him,sulking all through the day,until he apologizes.He doesn't apologize and I say all things like you don't value me and this relationship, so you are not apologizing. I berate myself. I want my colleagues acceptance that I stop my work and help them. But never I get their acceptance or approval. I feel like they berate or think low of me. I ask my spouse am I beautiful?he says am average looking,which is true,but I get hurt.Irony to this, when my mother says I am beautiful I don't believe her.i tell her she is lying.
I have been noticing that i go out of control due to my temper and become violent. Also i have noticed suicidal tendency in me. This has increased in last two years. I am not sure whom to consult. Can you please prescribe whom should i reach out for help before i do some major damage.
I was in depression 2 years back, now i am again very frustrated due to some different reasons. i ave tension eadac e and i m continueosly suffering from eadac e from last few days. not ing seems rig t or working.
Iam 33yr old women.i was working with one firm.my boss was very good but my Co workers were not that good .Lots of politics so I left from there .Then I got into a good organization where everything is good but manager is very rude and stress and long hours working and little far from my home
So I planned to quit , absconded saying some.medical emergency
Now iam feeling very guilt.and too much iam.thinking whether my decision is hasty decision or what .Can I join.my old organization back?
I have unwanted thoughts always coming in my mind, unstopable, it disturbed my whole life, m suffered from last 14-15 yrs...