Hi mam.. it has been quite long since i am feeling low. there is always a restlessness within me. i am not able to figure out wat it is.. sadness just struck me at times and i burst into tears... m not able to concentrate on things. also i don't get sleep easily... it is aggravating day by day and m now scared of this feeling.
I have everything parents,job,love etc etc but i am scared to laugh,i cry while laughing,i don't enjoy my life,everything is monotonous,i want to be pampered,i am in relationship for last 3 yrs but not happy, i feel alone i share everything with him but still most of the times i am alone. My mother is not well, i work at home also and no one thinks what i am going through,i have always lived for others ,i think a lot,i go out of my comfort zone for my loved ones but never received the same. My boyfriend tells me to share things with him but his life is very happening so he does not understand my situation i don't have any life outside working alone in ofc,cooking taking care of other people. I just don't want to live or i just want to go somewhere alone and take a deep breath and live alone there
I faced an epileptic attack 6 years ago. My doctor suggested me to take INTAS Valprol - CR 750 mg
twice a day. Since then I am taking the medicine regularly. I even consulted another doctor in year 2014. He also suggested me to continue with the same dose.
I have noticed some side effects like hair loss, weight gain, mood swings etc.
Please could you suggest whether I have to take
the medicine for lifetime.
I feel lonely , i am losing my interest in thing what i use love and even i cannot control my anger now day even small thing i get anger to the core
in all this one good thing is
i spend my whole day doing painting now
I am married for 4 months as of now , for the first 2 months we were too happy and enjoyed our life.
Now my husband feels that whatever I try to share or speak to him is not that worth and he says he gets headache .
He always shouts on me in high tone and ignores me. He wants me to be silent all the time .I am so disturbed by his actions that I feel somewhere this silence is killing me becoz of this I have started talking to myself silently . I feel that I am left alone in this world.
I am going psyched.