I am in a constant state of indecisiveness and confusion. Short temper, mood swings, feeling of loneliness and suicidal thoughts are regular. I am a dental surgeon currently pursuing M.D.S. Work pressure and college politics are at peak. I wish to leave studies in between as I want to earn to be independent. I want to get married but my parents are not ready for the person I'm in a relationship with. I feel lonely. I don't know what to do. I feel lonely and helpless as I'm still dependent on my father. And he is not even ready to listen to my views. I feel like ending my life. But I know I am a coward from inside. I'm afraid. I feel I'm nothing but a useless crap. No one needs me. I don't want to meet people. I feel uncomfortable among people. I hate being alone but I try to keep myself locked in my room so that I'm visible to no one.I wish my father understands me and I could get married to the one I'm in love with and live happily with him.I wish I could earn good money to be content
He behaves abnormally if i dont follow what he says.he becomes very angry and in that anger he doesn't understand who am i and hits me and after few sec he is like i am sorry i didn't mean it all happen ed in anger.what to do how he can control his anger pls suggest.
Sometime I suddenly afraid.. Heart beat becomes running fast... What is the solution for that? Let me knows pls
some of the problems that have been changing my life are listed below..
1.I lost the interest of doing anything
things have became interested to me for some short of while
2. I can't remember things
for example if I enter the room in search of something i can't even remember why i have entered
while I'm talking to someone i can't remember the word that is to be used or name of the person
1½ years back I had some family problems and during that time i was thinking about it too much and my anxiety level was at high
that time i could even kill those peoples who were there behind it
ok, then after 5/6 months everything got over
now whenever people do behave wrong with me i have started thinking of itn
and from 3-4 months before i started feeling sad,
now things are getting more worse
i never feel what I'm feeling right now
I have some mentally problem. Can't feel positivity and could not be in present. Feeling frustrated and furious every time. Can't understand what is happening. I don't want anything more. Lack of self-esteem. Could not focus on reality and problems can't face them. Plz suggest me what i have to do. Whenever i am going to meditate there is little headache started. Can't take proper sleep and cant stop overthinking.