Depressed and sucidical. Me about this.

I think weird things, I can't sleep all night without taking sleeping pills. I feel lonely, sad and depressed. I hurt myself many times. I want to die and I feel like killing myself. I don't share my feelings with others. I always feel tired, helpless, I feel guilty, I don't find any reason to live. I feel hopeless and worthless. I don't feel like eating. I can't get close to my family members. I get angry if anyone cares for me. I feel I'm a burden. I cry always. I'm having health issues like body pain and headache. I have mood swings. I have no friends. I'm very rude to everybody. I feel insecure all the times. I hate going out and I dislike going to work. I'm hurt easily by my loved ones. I just want to end my life. Please tell me about this.