Should take treatment or not. I do now?

I hve so much difficulty in study, according to me study become like a hell.I see black spots in front of my eyes when see something.When I see something, my eyeslid suddenly start movement makes my brain tough to do any task.Because of my brain,I do not have any control over my voluntary activities, anything happens any thing happen anytime.When I go to dance or music classes,I feel good,but when I do study or other activities ,it gets very difficult for me to do it,my eyelid movement makes my brain unable to do, causing very high laziness,focus loose that task.When I tell my mom and dad,they tell me that you are doing drama and you haven't wish to do study.What I do now?I am facing very high difficulty in studying.I am definitely sure that I am suffering from any disease.I like study but because of it I unable to do it.No one behaves with me goodly,everyone hates me because of such disease.I get fear from doctor.I think that if I go to doctor,I will forget my all study which must.