I have a huge fear of not been able to fulfil expectations. Even for simple things. I can't even take a spoonful of rice into my plate when judging eyes are seeing. I keep thinking about how i am been perceived. If people are receptive and encouraging i go on, else i retract into a shell. I please people excessively, and when others stop mirroring this facade then i detest them in my mind while outside i don't say anything. I have carrier ambitions but this weird side of me makes me doubt myself and so i am not trying things. Where i am now, i hate my work but people are friendly and accomodative and to try anything else i am just scared how i will react the imaginary push i feel from new people. I try to "learn" from others but at some point i wonder if i keep looking for others to replicate. Where is my originality. I don't own the moment. If someone doesn't laugh on my joke i stop trying. I look for other peoples' views before making decision about how i am. seek external validation
Like the answers? Chat privately for 24 hours with the doctor of your choice
Disclaimer : The content is not intended to be a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions you may have regarding your medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read on this website.