Repeating"good" words in my mind.

I repeat words in my mind which I think are definition of good in life like successful, beautiful, correct and perform daily work using these, if I dont use them then something bad will happen to me. During school I used to say words while writing exam so that I could get good marks...even visualize people who I thought are intelligent or my classmates which score good.i never made friends or even touched people I didn't find intelligent or attractive (while growing up) I thought if I visualize them or use their names or touch them it will make me less intelligent or unattractive. And worst part it happened while unintentionally and making full possible efforts to say good words or visualizing good things yet I get stuck at bad words and bad images of people I dont like then either I got bad result or that I didn't look gud or I did not get the expected result.there are times when I get intuitions that something is going to be bad and it happens. i cannot perform my daily activities.