Psychosis. When there are people around.

I have never revealed this to anyone before.kept it within myself for over 7years...but i told this to a girl..and things started getting worse..and now getiing out of control... Let me give a brief summary of how it got to here... I have emotionally handicapped....orthodox and parents...they cannot mingle with people...socially retarded...they are abusive and i have suffered physical and mental torture all my life... Then at a very young age..i began talking to myself..like it will be fine...i can survive them...slowly the "i" became "you".. and i began talking to myself in the second person like someone else was talking...at first it was only one person...now i have more than 20 inside my head...talking to each other arguing and they all are unique.when i am alone..they start talking and i speak whatever they say..when there are people around ..no one talks inside me...fear lies in the fact that i dont control what they say and when they talk.i dont exist...and i speak what they say