I don't know what this is. Normal.

I am lethargic like anything. I am not excited about anything in my life and evn for exercise nobody can convince me. I don't like my job and still m not doing anything about it. I'm not attached to anyone i can find problems with everyone all my life i have met mean people so i feel like what's the purpose of living in the world where you need to pretend. Sometimes i don't fear death. Even if i do people a favour they will betray me. I have lost hope from everyone and I know in this world nobody actually truly selflessly unconditionally loves you not even your parents. I m not a stubborn teenager speaking all this.. I don't harm people and neither let anyone know whats going on in me. I just posted here randomly. I don't like doing formalities like wishing ppl on bdays n ol neither do I expect them to wish me. At times i just feel to have painless death as this attitude will not fit me into the present world. Help me getting normal.