I always think that i am gonna die.

Hi Thanks for reaching out. It seems like you are having anxiety attack. Anxiety about having a heart attack or heart failure. When you focus on your heart rate, your anxiety increases and you feel like you will get a heart attack. It is okay to feel anxious. See a professional to help you understand what you're going through. 

1. Try abdominal breathing exercises. 2. Consult Counseling Psychologist.

1. Mental health is a serious matter. Do not suffer in silence. 2.Trearment is available.

I understand your predicament and would like to make a few suggestions that might help you. I want you to know that with awareness of how the mind works and how thoughts are generated, you will get better at dealing with them. The nature of the Mind, which in simple terms we experience as thoughts, is such that, it will keep shifting its focus from one object/topic/event to another. Ii always needs something to hold on to. Another important characteristic of the Mind is this - You will either have thoughts about the past or the future. This will keep alternating. Try thinking about the present moment - you will see that the Mind and 'Now' can never coexist. The Mind has 3 states in general. Sometimes, you may find yourself having very positive, inspiring thoughts. During other times, you may find yourself very emotional, or all charged for action. Whereas during other times, you may feel very lethargic, dull or lazy. These states will keep alternating. Having understood the nature of the mind, the first step towards mental health is to become aware of your thoughts. Learning to be an observer of your thoughts, learning to observe them from a distance like clouds passing in the sky. The next step is knowing that you have the power to choose which thought you wish to focus on and act on and exercising that power. With practice, you will have better mastery over this process. Having thoughts about one being worthless and feeling hopeless about life in general is also something that plagues everybody from time to time. Trust me, even if everything was perfect, you will still find some shortcomings somewhere and brood about it. Tension or anxiety is a physiological response which is again part of being human. It is normal to have such thoughts about any situation. As mentioned above, with practice, you will learn to focus and entertain only those thoughts are healthy enough to be acted upon. Whenever you feel overwhelmed by thoughts, just bring your focus back to your breath and take a few relaxing breaths. You will automatically be able to focus on the task at hand and do what is required. Whatever you feed your mind through your sense organs will be replayed to you as thoughts. Be conscious of this. Take care of the content you feed your mind - the kind of books you read, the websites you visit, the kind of music you listen to, the kind of food you eat, the kind of company you keep ( "You are an average of five people you spend most of your time with" ) Have faith in yourself. You are capable of dealing with this. You are going to do just fine. Take care.

I appreciate that you are aware about your feelings and taking care of it by approaching help from professionals, first of all calm yourself, there is no need to get panic for this, You are alive, and you are taking care of health, but remember physical health and mental health both should be stay healthy, to live healthy lifestyle, Try to divert your mind into Positivity, take help from Meditation and Mindfulness to live in present. Try to balance your emotions, listen some peaceful music on meditation music before going to sleep.if you still fine difficult or confused to handle this thoughts then I suggest you to consult with psychologist to help you best.

Consult with Psychologist

Try to divert yourself into positivity Practice mindfulness and meditation. Balance your emotion Listen peaceful music on meditation music before going off to sleep