Fear. Stressed out. Depressed. Help me.

At 22 weeks of my pregnancy I came to know that my baby is having anomaly... Severe... oligohydramnios... IUGR... Hyperechoic bowel with brain sparing... When I was pregnant i used to vomit thrice a day and eat less and frequent meal all my family members used to scold me for not eating properly... So I concluded that this anomaly is because of me... My doctor told me that it's not you fault .... Also in report they mentioned about trisomy 21 etc... After abortion I started getting guilt and anxiety attacks.. depressed..  fear of hurting others and my self... My desire is to lead a happy life with my lovable husband and delivery a healthy baby.... Please help me.... I want to come out of this fear and negative thoughts... My head is feeling heavy .... Sweating a lot... Heart beat is high... Etc... I'm scared... Please help me..