Emotional feel. But nt able to cry!

Tears are not the only way of expressing emotional turmoil. We tend to express emotions even through activities we take up or in a different form. For instance you might be expressing sadness or helplessness as anger and frustration. I see that you were overwhelmed by self-pity and helplessness in yesteryears. However eventually some things have changed you and altered your handling and expression of emotions. Please focus on those years and evaluate every thing that has changed so far. Irrespective of tears, if you feel worse than those years now, seek professional help(from a psychologist or psychiatrist) else recognize that you have been successful in changing your life for better so far. Good Luck.