Hi, thank you for sharing what you're going through - it takes courage to open up like this.
From what you've described, you may be experiencing symptoms of depression, anxiety, and possibly features related to ADHD or a mood regulation issue. The difficulty in initiating tasks, mood swings, low motivation, physical symptoms of anxiety, and focus problems can feel overwhelming, but you're not alone and help is available.
Next Steps
1. Please consider seeing a mental health professional (psychiatrist or clinical psychologist). If making the appointment feels difficult, ask a trusted friend or family member to help you set it up.
2. You may benefit from a structured evaluation to better understand whether this is depression, anxiety, ADHD, or something else.
3. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and/or medication might significantly reduce your symptoms.
Health Tips
a. Start small and gentle: Even getting out of bed and brushing your teeth is progress on tough days.
b. Avoid self-blame - what you're experiencing is real, and it's okay to seek help even if you're not fully sure what’s wrong.
c. Please don’t hesitate to take that first small step by talking to a professional.