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Trauma and long-term stress can cause memory gaps and a feeling of being disconnected from your body, which is often the mind's way of protecting you when things become too much. Since the memory loss is increasing and starting to affect your work, please also get a medical check-up (a doctor can rule out things like
thyroid issues,
vitamin deficiencies, sleep problems, or other physical causes). In the moment, when you feel detached, try grounding: press your feet firmly into the floor, hold something cold or textured, and name five things you can see and three you can hear. Then breathe in for 4 and out for 6 to 8.
There is a lot more to understand here, including which experiences your mind may be holding at a distance, and what is triggering the disconnection. That part is best explored with a professional in a safe, paced way, and it can improve with the right support. A therapy session can help you make sense of what's happening and start reconnecting with yourself. If you ever feel unsafe, or have thoughts of harming yourself, please reach out for help right away. Call or WhatsApp: nine two six six seven two six zero six five.