No grow up my confidence in my life.

Doctor, I hve hearing problem when I was 5th std. I suffer to everything without hearing aid till I was 20 yrs old. I am doing still lips reading nd I practice of myself without lips reading but I can't...I am very depress when I think about this problem and I face lots of interviews but No one give me chance to with this problem of any platforms ...I were using hearing aid after 22 yrs old...I feel myself normal but sometimes Someone behaviours and Action for me felt that Why they are not thinking that ki I am normal...why they judge me always that she has problem so speaking loudly...And I am using Moblie Phone...But No-one Call me atleast adjust with hearing...Just text ya chat...that time I hate myself and I thought I am very Useless daughter of my parents...i understand I need to more adjust myself with crowd and group discussions but I can't catch any speech of two ya four of people.please help me How I maintain my mind...I feel very depressive..Thank you so much for reading this