Mentally disturbed. Am always disturbed.

Hey, It is a huge dilemma anyone could face in a changing culture like ours. It's hard to choose between the family's expectations & your own inclinations when it comes to a life partner. This is a choice which could cause tremendous discomfort & lot of unresolved emotions like shame, guilt, confusion, pressure of expectations, sense of betrayal etc. because on one hand your family is integral part of you and on the other hand your lover is the representation of your dreams for an understanding companion. Whichever choice you make, wouldn't work exactly as you expect in life, hence enhancing your negative thoughts & emotions. Once you could ease all this burden you are carrying, you will be in a position to implement your choice with absolute clarity. You also can be helped to manage the other side of dilemma better. Psychological counseling would be of great help in this situation to help you cross this junction with renewed confidence. Good Luck.