Hopelessness, afraid. Feel normal again?

Hello, Yes, your condition can be helped. From the description that you have provided it can be said that you are suffering from significant negative emotional states and there is a high possibly of an ongoing depressive episode. The treating psychiatrist would also like to assess for Obsessive compulsive disorder, personality related factors, and your socio-enviornmental  factors prior to coming to a diagnosis and gaining a better understanding of your mind and mental health. Thereafter a comprehensive management plan can be made where medication and/or psychological intervention will be used for your well being. With a comprehensive assessment and collaborative management your mental health can definitely be improved. My strong suggestion for you is to seek an appointment with a psychiatrist near you and seek solution to your problems. I must here caution you against use of alprax and ciggerates as they can cause addiction and can harm your health. Hope this helps you, best of luck for health and future..