May be these issues are with you for so many and not resolved.
For every behaviour there is a reason behind it.
You could have developed these due to some situations or because of some people which either u jv observed or Or told that u are so and so during your childhood or Adolescence.
Don't worry, these are couldn't be resolved.
Do consult a Counsellor in your city and share all your feelings and the incidents , you might get a solution and clarity about yourself.
Hi..... Take steps to control stress, to increase your resilience and boost your self-esteem.
Reach out to family and friends, especially in times of crisis, to help you weather rough spells.
Get treatment at the earliest sign of a problem to help prevent your symptoms from worsening.
Consider getting long-term maintenance treatment to help preven,t a relapse of symptoms.....
Hi, don't hesitate to talk to some one you trust and know will understand you and do consult a psychologist/psychiatrist soon. The description you are giving are indicative of mental health issues and needs more understanding to better help you cope. It would be best if you can consult a professional at once. Good luck!