Depression, Panic Attacks. Should i do?

Last year in Dec I got married. It's an intercaste marriage I did everything in my power to make it happen. We got married but it was all one sided. I have always been honest & loyal to people and I have always trusted my partner blindly. There was some bad incident happened just a day prior to our marriage when I got to know that my partner was lying to me about his family and next day was wedding so I had to marry him. Definitely love is there but the foundation 'Trust' is gone. I feel insecure with him now. I don't trust whatever he says.I feel cheated. My husband & me are in a long distance relationship after marriage because of work. I can't sleep at all. All night I keep thinking that he broke my trust. How can you break trust of  somebody you love? I get panic attacks and all of a sudden I start crying. I want to forgive my partner he may had his own part of struggles but I can't do. My body shakes even thinking about that incident& I feel so angry & anxious. What should I do?