Depression. Thoughts came in my mind.

Hi dere, I have read about ur problems. And it seems u r going thru a lot right now. Emotionally speaking this is like the worst of all times. We can not change social obligations and complexities..but the gud news is we can learn to deal with such situations gradually.. Negativity ..hopelessness ...lack of enjoyment in things previously enjoyed...tearfulness...these r mere obvious result of a deep rooted biological and psychological problem. we find it difficult to focus on one thought and thought, mostly negative, always fill our mind. it's like having no control over them..this state is pretty much resolvable with some medicines and counselling. All u have to learn is the art to deal with adverse life conditions...Suicidal thoughts r not an apt way to solve things anyday...u have to take step thinking beyond the face of today. It's just a phase and this shall also pass.... u will be 100% better undoubtedly. All u gotta do is consult a psychiatrist if ur choice n faith and thus enable ur self to move beyond this problem. I hope this helps u but feel free to consult again. Thank you nd take care.