Depression. Those things. pls help me!

I am in treatment for depression. I am facing more problem nowadays, like talking unwantedly, getting more sleep than before, getting irritated for small things, seeking for more love. Can't control my mind, feeling hardness in my heart. Can't breathe properly, feeling so tired, nervous, body pain. Not getting good sleep at night, dreams are disturbing. I can't categorize certain things happened in my dream or really happened. Having serve headache. Before few days I hurted myself and now I am not having feeling of hurt. But I am behaving different like by doing loose talks, speaking things unwantedly, creating problems with loved ones and hurting myself mentally. I can't judge myself. I want to die soon don't have wish to survive. I am a foodie so if I am so sad, my friend will get me something to eat I will be cool at that time slowly I turn up to old condition. I am confusing everything that is happening to me. I know I am wrong but can't get rid of those things. Pls help me