Tired of treatment and false hope.

I was diagnosed with OCD at the start of COVID. I used to take medicine till Feb this year. I am fed up by it. Waking up taking medicine. Buying medicine worth 2000 every month. Also can not afford therapy after buying medicine and all. I tried online the medicines were given by the online doctor was making me dizzy sleepy. Nobody ever took time to evaluate my symptoms. Everything happened within five minutes. As a psychology student I did some tests we have taught in our class. Mind you I am not a psychologist, i am just a grad student. But this anxiety, obsessive thoughts are making me frustrated. My family donot support me in this. They think the medicines will make it hard for me to carry a child in future. I just sleep, donot go anywhere, gained weight, has depression. I am just done. I have exam tomorrow. What I am thinking about I will miss my exams and I will fail or I will say something wrong to the examiner. Am I going to be like this forever?