Negative thoughts and frustration.

Hello doctor I am 19 years old and I am suffering from problem of excessive negative thoughts from about 3 years now every day I have a lot of negative thoughts and this started 2 years when I was in class 12 and I did not know how to drive a motorcycle and I felt bad about that and then it just became a permanent thought in my head and I used the think that I am useless and I should not live and now even when I try to stop and resist I just can't it feels like my brain is automatically generating negative thoughts of it's own.It seems like my brain is extracting all bad incidents from my past.and evryday i get frustated and sometimes i feel like i loose control of my body and i just want to hurt myself or break things around me/punch a wall/window to take out my frustrations.I feel that i should kill myself and not live anymore and this usually happens for a small time like 15 to 20 mins sometimes a bit longer than but after that i return to normal. but the thought of death come daily