Mental health issues. And emotions.

Get angry often , if things doesn't happen as per me I get irritated, most of the time I feel I m unwanted and unvalued and unloved . In fact I m sure no one in my surroundings likes me , my parents / siblings / husband /inlaws . Bullied by people , not able to make decisions and even if I make one I regret a lot later . Don't feel like meeting people , feel alone in social gatherings. I chant , I meditate but it doesn't bring me much peace , I dwell most of the time in past wishing if I could undo somethings , Too emotional, that I cry quickly if someone really comments something personal . Always keep wishing if I wasn't alive or would have come in this world . Don't know how do I deal with my feelings and emotions.