Kind of fear. Now. i want myself back.

Hi, Am a very bold n positive person always. Am having 8months old baby. She s very active. Am alone with my husband's help taking care of her from birth. My parents nd his parents are not supportive though our marriage is arranged. From mrg itself my mother in law verbally abuse me since am obese. Baby also born after 4years of mrg lyf. So I use to get soo much from her those days. She always want me to seperate from his son. She s money minded. B4 mrg she gets the whole his salary now not. always told him wrong abt me which doesn't happen at all. he won't talk to me. So she I am very much worried tat she ll seperate us. Nwadys all the tym am thinking about this oly. For me also imagining -ve and fed-up. scary worried feed always.taking care of baby is a big deal. not physically nd mentally stable now. I want myself back.