It's very chaotic and Idk what to do.

So i am working rn, but salary is less but that doesn't concerns me a lot, what happens nowadays i can't think straight i feel like i am falling behind, my mind is always filled with thoughts, something breathing becomes heavy and eyes get droopy,i am not able to sleep properly my sleep schedule is not good. I have a partner too he supports me alot does things for me but when it comes to intimacy things everything gets depressing, because he has a condition, so it makes me a little frustrated, helpless and angry.i feel distant between us in times like this. But idk what to do. my job seems a little hectic for me but i can't leave this job because idk what to do in future. people are getting good jobs and everything and here i am fighting between my interests and jobs I have a useless talent of painting which is not helpful now, i am not able to support my parents, when I am sitting idle i always feel this uneasy ness, i feel my mind will burst it's heavy all the time.