I'm turning into an alcoholic.

Exercise: Get out there and take care of your body. It's all part of loving yourself. Take care of your health. Not to mention the endorphin rush after a workout will make you feel a lot better. Meditate: There are tons of apps out there that you can download like Headspace and Calm that will guide you through meditation. It'll help quiet the chatter that we all have going on inside of our heads. Often times when we're depressed we have so much negative chatter going on its defeating. This is a good way to help you practice dismissing negative thought patterns. Expectations: Stop trying to live up to other peoples expectations of you. It's your life not theirs. We often times are so hard on ourselves because we try to live up to other people expectations of us and we fail because they are constantly changing. When you let go of them and realize you're not going to please everyone you can be free. There is always going to be someone who is going to hate on you no matter what you do. The sooner you start living for yourself instead of other people, the better.We need to stop worrying so much about what other people think about and start paying more attention to how we feel about ourselves and nurture that instead. Spend all that energy you waste worrying about other peoples opinions and spend it loving yourself instead. I'm sure there are things that can be added to this list for people to try but I just wanted to reach out to someone who needs it. You can get through this and you can beat depression. You don't have to start doing them all right away, just pick one and start there. Know that you are worth it and you're worth fighting for!

consult Psychiatrist/ Psychologist

Kindly consult with a Psychiatrist, get treated.

You can take de addiction treatment,you will be better