I'm frustrated with my life. Routine )

I'm suffering from mental depression , i don't know there is a lots of hate or negativity in my mind , i can't sleep properly , i can't concentrate properly even i can't remember things , in my right side body always pain ( legs , hand , shoulder , eye , head ) i can't control my mind , i hate everyone and everyone hates me  and no one is happy with me , i can't express myself , i think too Dirty, i hate peoples , I'm too confus in everything , somtimes i feel bad and sometimes i feel good in same thing , i want but i can't do anything for me , I'm failure , i take everything too serious and deep , i think everything happens there is a reason behind that , people says I'm boring , sometimes I'm introvert and sometimes I'm extrovert , i can't live same in anything , every day aor week i have been change ( my thought , my routine )