Going through a stressful guilt break up

This was kinda a mutual breakup but still he doesn't want to end the relationship.From the initial stages I was very sure that this wouldn't work out due to religious and family issues.i loved him but all these years I never told but was talking to him friendly because I loved him. But at some point I had to confess my feelings. So I thought I should give a try and things got worst and I was so scared and unstable didn't know what to do and that was the time my friends was planning a trip and I decided to go with them and he wanted to come with me to spend time. I convinced and denied so much not too but somehow managed to come. we became so close we just spent one whole day. After the trip I had so many health issues because of the stress after then we had so many fights because of me🤷 He broke up with me then he spoke because I wasn't feeling well. Then I broke up with him because if Im still with him,My health would worst and I already lost myself completely in this process.Help !