Feeling hopeless, empty and judged.

I have no talent, I used to work at night shift. I just left my job without informing them. I switched off my phone and cut the contact with them. I don't know why I did that. I wanted to work there. Some powers is after me. I sit at home and in public places doing nothing, I stares and wall for long time, I want to wake up but something is holding me back. I have no friends. But it not because I don't socialize. I always go out. Nobody wants me. Recently I'm just feeling paranoid, empty. I feel nothing for no one. I don't feel love, pain, excitement. I have desire for nothing. I just want to disapper from world. I was hospitalized 3 months before for depression. After those 3 months. I don't think I am cured. I feel nothing. I don't care if I dead or alive. I get weird dreams everyday while I'm sleeping. I even get thoughts about insects like larvas are crawling and coming out from my skin. I get this thoughts everyday. Is this normal. Please help me.