Emotionally Unstabled. Is not worth it.

For these couple of months, I felt kinda different. I felt that I'm not being myself, like a total different person. I don't know if this is considered as a mental health or not to be honest. I was verbally bullied by my friends both girls and boys because I have a quite big chest that's what they say and I have parents that doesn't care anything other than my academic achievements. I don't trust them and I never tell any of my stories like other kids do with their parents. I was physically abused by my dad when I was a child. I don't actually know if all of that affected me. But I just wanna know how to get my old self back. I still feel even though it's just a little that losing my own life is not worth it.