Emotional outbursts and anxiety. Me.

Sounds like you're going through a rough patch. The description of your concerns indicates isolation from and lack of most forms of emotional support that can be very useful for recovery. There is also indication of some degree of self-sabotaging behaviour. People cope with life in different ways at different times. Sometimes what works for us at one point in our lives, may no longer work at other points. It helps to understand these patterns and, with help, it is possible to overcome them as well. Going to a psychologist does not mean you're "crazy" or "mad". Getting yourself evaluated by a mental health professional will enable you to understand the root concerns and help you figure out how to overcome these patterns of thought and behaviour and develop more effective coping strategies. There is nothing wrong with consulting with a professional who is able to help you sort through your emotions and help you deal with the issue at hand in a healthy manner. In the meantime, dedicate your efforts to having at least 2 people whom you can confide in and open up to - two people who you feel can understand you best. Take care.