Depression. Situation is getting worst.

The description provided by you here is highly suggestive of an ongoing depressive episode. The episode if left untreated, may cause further complications for you and your significant others. I would strongly urge you to seek a psychiatric consultation for comprehensive assessment and further management. The psychiatric will take a detailed history, conduct thorough interview with you, ask for relevant investigations and then prescribe you treatment. The treatment is likely to be a combination of medication and psychological intervention. Such a management will help you regain your confidence back, and remove the negative thought patterns that you have been having. Seek treatment early, and be assured that your condition will get better with treatment. Hope this helps you, wishing you an early recovery..