Depression. Is possible then plz help?

I'm in immense pain After suffering for 5 years from depression I have come to know that psychiatry is a pseudoscience which is being marketed as scientific. 1.The person who is suffering needs to get the blood test done, Thyroid, D3,B12 etc then nothing is found 2. SSRI(nexito) + Clonazepam is given 3. fluoxetine/sertaline with Atypical antipsychotic 4.SNRI +SSRI ... Then regular therapy is suggested in which dumb psychologists gives tools from some dumb book written by some stupid intellectual who doesn't understand that disease is not coz of thought but coz of changes in memory (memorising and retaining anything) which is never possible by changing thought pattern Then your condition is termed as treatment resistant U are needed to maintain this illness for whole life which makes your life hell and u can't do suicide coz people will think u are weak and u don't want to be a curse on your family especially mother. If there is any help that is possible then plz help