I can't handle the stress anymore. The idea of failure has always scared me. I have inexplicable anxiety attacks. I feel I have failed to acquire even sympathy from the people I love. I am a headache to everyone. I have been judged, slut shamed so I have problems trusting people easily. I don't feel loved or appreciated by my parents. Now they hate me because I don't conform to their ideas of a traditional Indian woman. My boyfriend has always been too busy to even pretend to care about me. I don't see any point in continuing to live with a futile hope of a better future. The days seem monotonous to me. I have failed to make anyone understand how I feel. I don't think anyone cares about the internal turmoil I am going through. I can't share with anyone because I don't want to come across as an attention seeker.I am contemplating suicide but I don't want to even fail in death and live as a handicapped person. I work in an IT based company. Please help me.
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