Gastric erosions are indeed painful. I'm sorry for your pain. Please visit a gastroenterologist regularly to control the pain.
But if you are feeling miserable and having suicidal thoughts, like you were mentioning, seek professional help ASAP
Next Steps
suicidal thoughts are considered to be psychiatric emergency. please consult a psychiatrist ASAP
Health Tips
take support from the family
regularly follow the instructions given by your gastroenterologist.
consult a psychiatric and please take help