Thank you for sharing. You are going through a lot of anger, resentment, confusion, regret, which are getting bottled up as you are not able to find ways to communicate with your parents while they try and understand what you are going through. You feel helpless and this bottles up and causes stress and anxiety.
Next Steps
You should look at seeking therapy in order to put things into perspective and deal with your emotions while you are able to take the right decisions for yourself. Until you decide to do that you can try and push yourself to go for a healthy routine with exercise, focus on things that make you happy and connect with your friends and other loved ones.