Hi, it seems you are suffering from depression or some stress. First one needs to be confirmed about the diagnosis that what exactly the root cause of your problem then only you can work on the solution. You can also watch my video on depression by which you yourself can confirm if you are suffering from depression or not. https://youtu.be/uGWT5dExtEM
Next Steps
Consult a psychiatrist nearby or online so that diagnosis and established and then you can easily come out of this condition with proper psychotherapy and/or medication.
Health Tips
Till then you can start practicing meditation which will help you to lower down your stress