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Hi It sounds like you’ve spent so many years surviving difficult environments that fear and self-doubt have become your default mode. The problem isn’t a lack of potential—it’s that constant stress has made it hard to trust yourself, take action, and focus on what truly matters. The hopelessness, avoidance, and suicidal thoughts you’re experiencing deserve professional support. With therapy, you can work through the impact of your past, build confidence, and start living from your strengths instead of your fears. Take therapy. You can connect with me on nine two six six seven two six zero six five.

Thank you for sharing this — it takes a lot. You’ve been in difficult environments since childhood and that kind of thing doesn’t just go away on its own. The fear, hopelessness, not enjoying anything even when you’re trying to distract — it all adds up. The suicidal thoughts — I won’t ignore that part. Fear of pain is protecting you right now but that’s not a permanent solution. It needs attention. You said you feel you have potential — hold onto that feeling, it matters. Please book a consultation once. Too much to carry alone.

Toxic and invalidating environment can lead to development of various core patterns in an individual like they are not good enough or that they will fail. Because of this anger gets internalised and slowly self harming thoughts start increasing. The fear you are feeling is completely valid as our nervous system works based on past experiences. You don't have to change anything about yourself and ofcourse you have the potential to do whatever you set your mind to. With therapy you can learn how to make the most of your time and succeed without past experiences hindering your path. I provide online consultation and therapy support you can contact me directly on seven eight seven seven six three nine six eight two for detailed evaluation and management plan.

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Personality vs MDD Kindly consult

Hello, I completely understand and hear your pain. Carrying a heavy, stressful environment since the age of 5 takes a massive emotional and physical toll on your nervous system. It is incredibly brave of you to share this, and I want to reassure you that you do not have to carry this heavy weight entirely on your own shoulders.The feelings of fear, hopelessness, and losing joy in daily activities like watching reels are clear clinical signals that your mind is currently exhausted and in survival mode. More importantly, because you mentioned experiencing thoughts of wanting to end your life, it is absolutely vital that you do not delay seeking professional support. These thoughts are a medical emergency, but they are treatable.Please remember that this painful phase is a temporary state of your brain chemistry and current life circumstances—it is not your permanent reality. With a proper, compassionate blend of specialized psychiatric guidance and supportive therapy, your brain can heal, and you can absolutely reclaim your peace, focus, and true potential.I strongly urge you to consult a psychiatrist immediately for a comprehensive, confidential evaluation. If you are comfortable  you can consult me , where we can navigate this step-by-step in a safe, completely non-judgmental space. Please take care of yourself; help is available."

Kindly reach out for sessions

Hello hi, Firstly don't worry regarding that isuue.You just need counselling and psychotherapy along with medications.Prior to that please consult psychiatrist in person or online for further more evaluation in detail and Better treatment

Hi, counseling can help. Consult online for treatment

Hi, Thank you for sharing this. It sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot of emotional distress, overthinking, self-doubt, and relationship-related struggles for quite some time. I can understand how exhausting and overwhelming that can feel. The concerns you’ve mentioned—anxiety, rumination, self-worth, relationship patterns, attention difficulties, and existential questions—are all things that can be explored and worked through in therapy. With the right support, it is possible to gain better understanding, clarity, and healthier coping strategies. If you’d like, you can book a session with me, and we can work together to better understand these patterns and help you move toward a more balanced and fulfilling life. Warm regards, Ruhi Jain Counselling Psychologist Ruuh Healing

Your potential hasn’t disappeared—it is simply trapped beneath years of chronic stress. Living in a high-conflict environment since childhood forces your nervous system into survival mode. Pervasive fear, hopelessness, a lack of joy (anhedonia), and suicidal thoughts are clear biological signs of Clinical Depression and Anxiety. Escaping into reels is a coping mechanism, not laziness. This is a highly treatable medical condition, and you can absolutely break this cycle.