Beloved Soul, I have seen your mentioned details it shows presently you are moving towards clinical depression and frequent mood swings trigger by your dysfunctional family.
I can understand your feelings and challenges you are experiencing .
My request Please visit a mental health expert to learn how to deal with your emotional issues, as well as take some therapy sessions for healing your inner child and clarity for future, please have a positive approach to move ahead in your life .
Lot's of Love and blessings.
Next Steps
Do self help techniques, such as
mindfulness breathing exercises,
dairy writing, walking and proper diet, readings books , positive self affirmation and
emotional freedom technique etc..
Take appointment with mental health care expert.
Health Tips
note-keep a regular follow up with your therapist for 6weeks or as required.