Very weird feeling. Nothing feels right.

I think I have PTSD & what not. I've not been able to talk to anyone who can help. I have been trying to get help from my family and friends but that seems extremely hopeless. I don't know what I want to do about what's going on. It has started to take a toll on my life. I have many sleepless nights and the nights that I do sleep are filled with nightmares and sleep paralysis. My bp is 145-110. I drink once a month, I have weed once a month and I smoke 4-5 times a month, 3-4 ciggys each time. I'm not able to be steady on anything. I've become a pessimist and a procrastinator. There are many things that would be very difficult to speak openly. If anyone could recommend me a psychologist from Pune it would be great. I want to try out Therapy before medication. I'm desperate to make things right and I think that's the first step. I need a good guide and a patient listener.