Suffered abuse during my childhood days.

Hi, I am 34 years old  married, having one kid .  My husband sometimes complaints of the fact that I don't speak to him properly, but I am not able to differentiate that. I suffered a lot of physical , emotional and mental abuse during my childhood. My parents used to fight and then my father would beat me very badly . It started when I was 4 years old.He will hit on my back using fist, would slap me on my face,  would twist my ears and cheeks till they were swollen . He would abuse me with slangs and tell me I am no good . If anyone intervened, he would hit me more. My mother would blame me  . I have 2 more siblings but my parents never abused them . My grandmother would accuse me of theft and jealousy towards my siblings when that was not the case. I am still grateful to my parents for sponsoring my education. I love them, and have forgiven them , but it still affects me badly. Sometimes I am unable to sleep. Need help so that it doesn't effect my family.